So I need to get this off my chest

And what better way to do that then through my journal/blog. If you don't want to hear my frustrations you don't have to read on.
One thing that I know I have a hard time with is judging other people, so maybe this is why I am going through this little trial right now. Mark and I are always saying how lucky we are to live where we do with supportive friends and neighbors. Especially since we moved here last year because we just seem to have health trial after health trial. Nothing too serious, but the stress still wears on ya. We have been blessed to have intuitive people around us who know when we need help and put the word out. We have NOT ONCE had to ask for help through any of these trials. This last one was the same. We literally had people calling and offering and bringing meals without ever saying a word to anyone. We were so incredibly thankful. We needed it more than ever because neither of us was well. Usually at least one of us can hold it together but this time we were both in bad shape. Unfortunately I felt when I talked to some people that they were wondering first of all why I was in so much pain and second of all what the big deal was. I brushed it off to my altered mind that was full of pain medication and also my obsessive worrying that happens all the time. That has been one of my fears this entire year. That we will be known as "that family". We have never been that family nor do I ever want to be that family. I don't want to deal with health problems. I am an active person who hates being cooped up in the house. And more than that I hate admitting I am weak and that I need help. Well since I have been feeling better I have also been hearing "musings" that my fears weren't unwarrented and that people have in fact wondered what the big deal is since all I have is a "cyst". This has emotionally devastated me right now. I am not a weak person and I don't want to be. So to hear that others are questioning my strength really just brings all my self doubt and fears to the forefront. I have a high threshold for pain, I have had natural childbirth for heaven sakes. I was in the worst pain I have ever been this weekend. I am not going to explain any more than that because this isn't about explaining. Whether I had really been in that much pain or not, I shouldn't be judged according to my pain level. We needed help. We didn't ask for it, but we sure as heck weren't going to say no. I am not superwoman and I can't always be 100% mom. I would hope that when someone needs me whether it be because of physical or emotional pain that I would be there no questions asked. Maybe that is a lesson I needed to learn more than anyone else. Maybe this is what Heavenly Father is trying to teach me. I definitely know it has humbled me.